I watched this movie last Tuesday with a colleague. The story was just simple and predictable- a girl who never said no to a request from her friends and family and who was always daydreaming about her own wedding, finally stands up for what she wants and for her happiness. Yes, I was able to relate to Jane. I'm not a do-gooder like her, but I am always a hopeless romantic: always daydreaming about my own wedding and marriage, always in love with weddings, always teary-eyed after reading a romance novel or watching a romantic movie, and always weaving a love story that could be mine. Although I don't have a collection of bridesmaid's dresses, I was able to say, "Hey, that girl is me." - at an exaggerated level, of course.
Believe me, I tried so much to change my perspective on love and falling in love. But I've never changed. Maybe this perspective makes me who I really am. Maybe I just have to wait.
I just hope I don't have to wait until I turn 30 though...
Monday, February 11, 2008
Thursday, February 7, 2008
quotes
the joy of having a gift is not really on the gift itself, but on the fact that the giver thought about what to give you, made an effort on thinking of what you want.
a flower given to a girl is of no purpose if the giver just gave it because she asked for it.
a flower given to a girl is of no purpose if the giver just gave it because she asked for it.
Monday, January 28, 2008
8 days before I turn 25
Since I returned from my Christmas vacation, I feel like I don't have life outside work. When I wake up, I go straight to work. When I get out of the office, I go straight home.
When I'm in the pensive mood, I often get irritated by how life is. Before, I refused a marriage proposal because I thought I was still young and there are a lot of things that could happen to my life. Now, I'm almost 25 and finding it hard to settle down. I have friends who vowed never to get married and just get herself pregnant to have a baby. But now, she's married and she doesn't have a kid yet. And I, who dreamt of having my own family, am still very much single and only had 1 serious relationship ever. The exes are coming back now but they didn't come back when I wanted them to.
Grrr... Is this what they call the midlife crisis?
When I'm in the pensive mood, I often get irritated by how life is. Before, I refused a marriage proposal because I thought I was still young and there are a lot of things that could happen to my life. Now, I'm almost 25 and finding it hard to settle down. I have friends who vowed never to get married and just get herself pregnant to have a baby. But now, she's married and she doesn't have a kid yet. And I, who dreamt of having my own family, am still very much single and only had 1 serious relationship ever. The exes are coming back now but they didn't come back when I wanted them to.
Grrr... Is this what they call the midlife crisis?
Thursday, November 22, 2007
24 turning 25
About 2 months from now, I will be turning 25 years old. 25 is a scary age for me. It means that you just have 5 years more to be 30; 5 years is just a very short time.
I may have become a trainer at the age of 24 (and that's still young), and I may be happy with my life now, but there's something that I still failed to do. And that is to have one single relationship that I can be proud of. I never had a normal loving relationship, not even once. All relationships I had either started out wrong and ended wrong or could be considered non-existent.
My very first boyfriend was from Davao whom I've never seen in person. I had a boyfriend who disappeared after I said, "Yes! I'll be your girlfriend." I had another who was hated by my friends and family and who left me for another girl. I had one who only meets me once or twice a month, and I didn't even get to know any of his friends and family members.
I'm worried. I'm going to be 25 soon and yet I still haven't experienced how it is to be a normal girlfriend. Yes, I want that. I want to go shopping with a boyfriend, watch movies with him, have dinner with his family, have a drink with his friends and see him more than once in a week.
I want to be normal.
I may have become a trainer at the age of 24 (and that's still young), and I may be happy with my life now, but there's something that I still failed to do. And that is to have one single relationship that I can be proud of. I never had a normal loving relationship, not even once. All relationships I had either started out wrong and ended wrong or could be considered non-existent.
My very first boyfriend was from Davao whom I've never seen in person. I had a boyfriend who disappeared after I said, "Yes! I'll be your girlfriend." I had another who was hated by my friends and family and who left me for another girl. I had one who only meets me once or twice a month, and I didn't even get to know any of his friends and family members.
I'm worried. I'm going to be 25 soon and yet I still haven't experienced how it is to be a normal girlfriend. Yes, I want that. I want to go shopping with a boyfriend, watch movies with him, have dinner with his family, have a drink with his friends and see him more than once in a week.
I want to be normal.
Saturday, July 28, 2007
ulan na sad
nag-ulan na sad. maayo pa ang kalangitan kay wala siya'y bale kung kinsa ang mureklamo na mutulo na ang luha, dili siya maulaw kung sobra na ang banaw tungod sa iya. bisan unsaon nako ug pamisti na nabasa na sad akong nilabhan ug dili ko kauli ug tarong sa akong kuwarto nga gamay, wala gyud siya papugong. wala pa ggyud na siya'y ulaw kay paghuman sa ulan, usahay musidlak ang adlaw na pagka-anindot. murag wala lay nahitabo.
nganong ang tawo bisan unsa na kasakit sa gibati, bisan nangatangtang na ang ngipon sa pagkagut, kinahanglan man pugngan ang tulo sa luha? kani mahitabo ilabina sa mga lugar na daghang tawo. ulaw ihilak. usahay bati-on nato na huyang kaayo 'ta kung di ta kapugong sa hilak. sakit na kaayo imong dughan. ang sakit mura ka ug kapila giduslak ug pinuti.
kung dili na gyud kapugong, mu-adto sa banyo ug muhilak sa hilom. usahay, pugngan lang, unya pag-abot sa balay, didto ipa-anod tanan. muhilak sa kahilom ug kangitngit... hangtud makatulog.
pero sa sunod nga adlaw, mao ra gihapon ang gibati. nagbitbit ra gihapon sa kasakit. wala'y nakabalo, pero sa sulod sa imong pagkatawo naghinay-hinay na ka ug kalunod.
nganong ang tawo bisan unsa na kasakit sa gibati, bisan nangatangtang na ang ngipon sa pagkagut, kinahanglan man pugngan ang tulo sa luha? kani mahitabo ilabina sa mga lugar na daghang tawo. ulaw ihilak. usahay bati-on nato na huyang kaayo 'ta kung di ta kapugong sa hilak. sakit na kaayo imong dughan. ang sakit mura ka ug kapila giduslak ug pinuti.
kung dili na gyud kapugong, mu-adto sa banyo ug muhilak sa hilom. usahay, pugngan lang, unya pag-abot sa balay, didto ipa-anod tanan. muhilak sa kahilom ug kangitngit... hangtud makatulog.
pero sa sunod nga adlaw, mao ra gihapon ang gibati. nagbitbit ra gihapon sa kasakit. wala'y nakabalo, pero sa sulod sa imong pagkatawo naghinay-hinay na ka ug kalunod.
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