new company

just an update... i am with a new company now. i am finally free from my evil bosses!

Good Morning Anya!

I was early for work today. I wanted to go to the gym, workout and read inside the sauna. I'm already out of shape. I need to sweat out. But guess what? Fitness First is closed. They should stay open on a holiday! People workout on a holiday too! Hell, they should even stay open 24 hours a day!

I couldn't do anything anymore since it's closed. I figured that I better get coffee or else I'll just hit the floor and sleep. And certainly, this is my lucky day because the Starbucks branch in our building is also closed for the holiday. Couldn't I be luckier than this?

Updates

I'm back to training new people now. This is something that I haven't done in a while. I admit it was difficult to start learning to teach again and my feet would agree to that. When I get home, they're already swollen. And the next day, I have to wear stilettos again! I don't even have the energy to eat when I get home. and i'm having a hard time finding the right words when I'm explaining.

But hey, I love training people. Maybe the satisfaction of doing what I lvoe is enough for me to keep going.

Anyway, I heard that our boss is resigning. Geez... Everybody's resigning! Shall I get out too? Or maybe I should stay and then I can have the chance to be the boss?

So I Heard

I was able to talk to my supervisor a few days ago. She said that she has been thinking about retracting her resignation. I wasn't able to react because in truth, I know it will be good if she resigns. One, I wouldn't have to deal with a self-righteous person who has delusions of living by her so called "principles". Two, I would not have to worry about having the wrong schedule in our payroll system and getting a very small pay. Three, I would not be a shock absorber anymore of my colleagues' woes about how she tells them to do loads of things.

What pisses me off is that she still talks about how her "principles" are compromised because of what other people in the company do. You may be wondering what those principles are; let me give you an example. She always issues a memo to a trainee or an agent whom she caught surfing the net. But guess what, I've seen her check her Friendster profile too. She keeps on saying that she and her BF do not show PDA at work. But then again, when another trainer was discussing in front of the class, she lets the BF in and be seated next to her at the back of the class. (And hun, the BF is not part of the class.)

I don't care about her surfing the net or doing PDA. I just don't like it when she pretends to be pristine and faultless. I haven't really liked hypocrites.

I am a bitch. I'm not proud of it but at least, I accept that I am one and I do not pretend to be a goody-goody.

I Passed!

As expected, I passed the exam. What I didn't expect was my score. It was higher than what I've expected. I admit, I really suck in studying. And I, of course, surfed the Internet while pretending to review for the exam.

And now, I'm reviewing for another exam or at least pretending to be. ;)

Butterflies in My Stomach

I will be taking a licensure exam tomorrow. And no, I will not tell you what kind of exam it is. I'm anxious and nervous. I want to throw up.

Gossip

The girls in the training department tried to see how fast news can travel. We just talked about leaving the company in our area, in the elevator box, and at the smoking area. And guess what? On the next day, we were asked by a couple of agents if we are indeed leaving the company. Walls really have ears.

Worthy?

Little J, a co-trainer, just sent me a text this morning saying that she might be assigned as a dedicated trainer for one big line of business. And because of that she will no longer be an employee of the call center, but an employee of the client. Of course, her pay will increase because she will now be working for a big US company. Let's call the company Broker's Inc.

Oh well, she always gets the good stuff. When she transfers, I should be supervisor then. There's no guarrantee that the movement will happen anyway.

Start here!

Call me Anya. I work as a trainer in a call center for a brokerage firm. You thought work is just where you do things for you to get paid. Well, you're kinda right about that. I am in it for money. But to get your mullah, you have to go through so much drama.

Beginning today, you will read a lot of whinings, gossips and schemes at work. And most of the time, you're going to hate me.

Fried Chicken and Coffee

I thought I was going to be late today. I ran as fast as I could from the entrance of our building to our office. And thankfully, I was 6 minutes early. I can NEVER be late for work. Being always early makes your image at work shiny. It's a way to suck up to your boss without having to force yourself to smile at him.

Anyway, K, another trainer, and I decided to grab coffee from Starbucks before starting our day. I had to try their new Frapuccino variant, Dark Mocha and guess what, I received a complimentary drink again. (This is my third time to receive such thing and K hasn't received any ever.) I guess I'm really lucky huh!

On our way back to our office, I saw this guy with a mustache. I remembered that he's the guy who just exercises for 20 minutes and then spends his time using the computers in Fitness First to surf the Internet. Such a poser!

When we're back in front of our computers, we drank our coffee with the fried chicken that I cooked at home. Of course, I shared the chicken to 2 other guys from our department. I know the combination is weird. But hey, the chicken was good. And yes, I brought food because as they say, "A way to a man's heart is through his stomache." This is also true for women.

When I opened my email, the ad for the training supervisor post was already released. Now you know what the chicken is for. ;)

GUY MAGNET II

There goes my weekend. *sigh* Can I just say that it's too short? I know everyone will agree. Well, it has been productive. I was able to go to an acquaintance's birthday celebration (no booze for me), send a boxful of toys and magazines, watch a good movie and go to a doctor for a check up.

I won't be really writing about my weekend. It's about being the "guy magnet" again over the weekend. So it started, rather continued, when I went to Marikina for a birthday celebration. I didn't really know where they live so i just rode a cab and asked the driver to take me to Marikina Riverbank. I guess I was really unlucky because I ran out of load. I just decided to call the gf of the celebrant through a pay phone in a 7 11 store to let them pick me up. While I was waiting for them, a guy started to ask for the time and he added, "Pauwi ka na?".

I just answered a short no and gave him an intimidating look.

"Saan ka papunta?" he asked again.

"To a friend's house." I answered with an irritated tone.

"Samahan kita? Ako pala si ... (I forgot the name hehehe.)" Wow! He's makulit. I know the that he wouldn't stop so I decided to wait inside the store.

When I thought that he was gone, I went out to wait. Then another guy talked to me.

"Saan ka, miss?" the taxi driver asked.

"May susundo po sa akin." I just gave him a direct answer because I don't want to deal with another makulit.

"Eh nagtatanong lang. Baka kako pwede ka naming ihatid." he answered. Whaaat?! He will be with another person when he would bring me to my destination? Scary! Good thing, the couple arrived.

There were some unlucky instances before we reached the celebrant's house (like car not starting). So when we arrived, most of the people were already drunk. There was this big guy who probably had a quarrel with his gf. Let's call him Shrek. He offered to take me home. I agreed because I thought he was trustworthy. When we were on our way, we decided to drop by the riverbank. I wanted to make a stop over because I was afraid that we might meet an accident with the way he was driving. We walked for a while and talked. But he tried to make his move on kissing me. Luckily, I was able to duck. What a jerk! We were talking about his gf and how a family must stay together and he tried to do that? And he didn't stop there. He still tried for the second time. I couldn't just slap him because I know it will embarrass him. I want him to realize his mistakes, not slap him his mistakes. Then again, I guess I should have slapped him because he was already asking me to go to a motel with him. WTF! I thought Shrek was a good guy but I was proven wrong. He is an OGRE inside out. When he was being makulit on going to a motel, I bitched out and told him I'll take a cab. So he brought me home. But I guess he couldn't realize that I was already irritated since he still asked me if he could stay in my place for the night. I gave him one of my fake smiles and said, "Bye!". Then I crossed the street.

I guess I don't want to hang out with the group anymore. There goes my social life. The "guy magnet" doesn't have a social life anymore. It should have been fine if I just attract the good ones, but the unfortunate Amor only attracts the rotten ones.

27 DRESSES

I watched this movie last Tuesday with a colleague. The story was just simple and predictable- a girl who never said no to a request from her friends and family and who was always daydreaming about her own wedding, finally stands up for what she wants and for her happiness. Yes, I was able to relate to Jane. I'm not a do-gooder like her, but I am always a hopeless romantic: always daydreaming about my own wedding and marriage, always in love with weddings, always teary-eyed after reading a romance novel or watching a romantic movie, and always weaving a love story that could be mine. Although I don't have a collection of bridesmaid's dresses, I was able to say, "Hey, that girl is me." - at an exaggerated level, of course.

Believe me, I tried so much to change my perspective on love and falling in love. But I've never changed. Maybe this perspective makes me who I really am. Maybe I just have to wait.

I just hope I don't have to wait until I turn 30 though...

quotes

the joy of having a gift is not really on the gift itself, but on the fact that the giver thought about what to give you, made an effort on thinking of what you want.

a flower given to a girl is of no purpose if the giver just gave it because she asked for it.

8 days before I turn 25

Since I returned from my Christmas vacation, I feel like I don't have life outside work. When I wake up, I go straight to work. When I get out of the office, I go straight home.

When I'm in the pensive mood, I often get irritated by how life is. Before, I refused a marriage proposal because I thought I was still young and there are a lot of things that could happen to my life. Now, I'm almost 25 and finding it hard to settle down. I have friends who vowed never to get married and just get herself pregnant to have a baby. But now, she's married and she doesn't have a kid yet. And I, who dreamt of having my own family, am still very much single and only had 1 serious relationship ever. The exes are coming back now but they didn't come back when I wanted them to.

Grrr... Is this what they call the midlife crisis?