The Clock Has Started

So the clockstopper and I broke up... It's an end to a wonderful start. I thought it was the relationship that would last until forever. When I prayed for the relationship and wished for it from a shooting star, I asked God and that star to give that to me until I die. But it finally had to end. I am still in love with him. And yes, I am hurting. But the hurt is different this time. It's like I'm suddenly uprooted. I suddenly don't know what to do with my life or if I have one. He has been my life for years. It hurts like someone took my heart away. I can't cry about it. I can't throw expletive phrases at him. Maybe I'm in denial. One thing that's good, though, is that I still can smile. I was able to for the people I work with and strangers I meet. I hope it means that I can get over him soon. Maybe the only consolation I have is the fact that I tried to do everything I could, no reservations; even in forgiving him about his cheating. For once, I couldn't blame myself. __________________________________ So after a short shopping at Ever Pasig, I took a jeepney home. It was definitely the worse traffic of all. But the San Sebastian Choir was in the jeepney with me. They did an impromptu concert, singing Christmas songs and "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz. They were very generous with their talent and I am sure that everybody in that vehicle felt the essence of the holiday. Thank you for the songs and the smiles.