but if i'd be planning for my wedding, how would it be?
maybe the first thing that i'd do is think of how our wedding should be. i want it simple, but fun. i would want that all the people who are important to me and my husband-to-be will be there, since i believe that the marriage is for the couple, but the wedding is a celebration for all people that matter your lives (not the city mayor that you don't know or the congressman whom you only have seen on TV). i haven't really decided in what time of the day it would take place. well, most probably at 4pm since i would want the guests to dance the night away after the reception. the church should be brightly lit and decorated with many flowers of different colors, pastel colors preferably. we would have 2 cute flower girls dressed in very short Tinkerbell-like dresses with wings on their backs.
that's it for now. updates later.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
wedding bells and wedding dreams
i was supposed to render an hour of pre-shift overtime today but i was too lazy again to get up from my bed. so the 1 hour OT decreased to 30 minutes OT.
my life has been boring again these past few weeks. from work, i go home. i, then, either watch a movie with a dvd i bought from guadalupe, or read a mushy tagalog novel. sounds like a routine of a spinster huh? maybe that's the road that i'm involuntarily taking. being a spinster. and that could be a very surprising route in the eyes of my friends and people who know me. my college friends even expected me to be the first one who will get married in our circle. shockingly, two of my friends got married (of course, before I do). one of them even said that she won't get married and she would just have herself impregnated. but that was, of course, when we were a lot younger.
perhaps, i am still young. hehehe... i would want to enjoy movies, 'baduy' novels and being alone. maybe it's more fun to be bored alone that to be bored with someone.
my life has been boring again these past few weeks. from work, i go home. i, then, either watch a movie with a dvd i bought from guadalupe, or read a mushy tagalog novel. sounds like a routine of a spinster huh? maybe that's the road that i'm involuntarily taking. being a spinster. and that could be a very surprising route in the eyes of my friends and people who know me. my college friends even expected me to be the first one who will get married in our circle. shockingly, two of my friends got married (of course, before I do). one of them even said that she won't get married and she would just have herself impregnated. but that was, of course, when we were a lot younger.
perhaps, i am still young. hehehe... i would want to enjoy movies, 'baduy' novels and being alone. maybe it's more fun to be bored alone that to be bored with someone.
Monday, April 9, 2007
of marriage and desperation
it's already easter sunday but i haven't been to the church since... i don't remember. i know i should but i haven't felt religious the past few months. i know, it isn't supposed to be just a 'feeling'. it's supposed to be your duty to thank the person up there. there shouldn't be an excuse. i don't have one. so, let's not talk about it.
peejee, one of the few friends i have, had already said her marriage vows in front of a judge recently. lizzie, another friend, went to the states last year and got married there. good for them. in a woman's life, we are already at the marrying age anyway.
however, when i think about marriage in my life, it's somewhat like an unreachable dream. it's not like an alien situation or a strange event for me since my mom is a wedding coordinator. i've been to a lot of weddings, i've tried a lot of bridal gowns, i've read a lot of vows, and i've eaten wedding cakes of different flavors. it's just that 'marriage' is something that's so near yet so far in my life. so near because it has always been a part of my life. so far because it's never me at the altar. perhaps, the husband-to-be is still missing. hahaha!
you might smell desperation. maybe i am? or maybe it's just a tinge of wonder that people normally have. but then again, maybe i'm just envious
peejee, one of the few friends i have, had already said her marriage vows in front of a judge recently. lizzie, another friend, went to the states last year and got married there. good for them. in a woman's life, we are already at the marrying age anyway.
however, when i think about marriage in my life, it's somewhat like an unreachable dream. it's not like an alien situation or a strange event for me since my mom is a wedding coordinator. i've been to a lot of weddings, i've tried a lot of bridal gowns, i've read a lot of vows, and i've eaten wedding cakes of different flavors. it's just that 'marriage' is something that's so near yet so far in my life. so near because it has always been a part of my life. so far because it's never me at the altar. perhaps, the husband-to-be is still missing. hahaha!
you might smell desperation. maybe i am? or maybe it's just a tinge of wonder that people normally have. but then again, maybe i'm just envious
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
confessions
1. although i get hyperacidity everytime i drink coffee, i still consume coffee because of conversations.
2. my friends started calling me 'amor' because of the term 'amorous' in our humanities II class. 'amorous' describes me, they said.
3. my mobile phone has been with me for more that 3 years and i haven't paid for it since it was free through globe.
4. whenever i see a couple who are very sweet to each other, my mind would automatically imagine them having sex. and then i laugh privately at the thought.
5. i've never had a real suitor, ever.
6. i've never received flowers or chocolates or anything during valentine's day.
7. i'm allergic to dogs. whenever a dog is near to me for a time, i'd get itches all over my body.
8. i put gravy over my rice whenever i eat in KFC and my favorite food in kfc is their mushroom soup.
9. i still play online games like tantra.
10. i've fallen in love a few times with persons i haven't yet seen.
11. i get dumbfounded when a person would ask, "what kind of music do you listen to?" i have this general idea that all people are music lovers. they just differ with the kind of music they like. but i don't usually listen to music, and i find that weird.
12. my favorite color is red.
13. i had my first and second crushes when i was in kinder and i still remember their names. one was my childhood sweetheart, joel james bacayo. the other one was norimark contreras.
14. i write when i'm naked.
15. and i can't write if i'm not emotional.
16. i cry when i'm physically tired.
17. i am manic-depressive (as you already know based on your readings).
2. my friends started calling me 'amor' because of the term 'amorous' in our humanities II class. 'amorous' describes me, they said.
3. my mobile phone has been with me for more that 3 years and i haven't paid for it since it was free through globe.
4. whenever i see a couple who are very sweet to each other, my mind would automatically imagine them having sex. and then i laugh privately at the thought.
5. i've never had a real suitor, ever.
6. i've never received flowers or chocolates or anything during valentine's day.
7. i'm allergic to dogs. whenever a dog is near to me for a time, i'd get itches all over my body.
8. i put gravy over my rice whenever i eat in KFC and my favorite food in kfc is their mushroom soup.
9. i still play online games like tantra.
10. i've fallen in love a few times with persons i haven't yet seen.
11. i get dumbfounded when a person would ask, "what kind of music do you listen to?" i have this general idea that all people are music lovers. they just differ with the kind of music they like. but i don't usually listen to music, and i find that weird.
12. my favorite color is red.
13. i had my first and second crushes when i was in kinder and i still remember their names. one was my childhood sweetheart, joel james bacayo. the other one was norimark contreras.
14. i write when i'm naked.
15. and i can't write if i'm not emotional.
16. i cry when i'm physically tired.
17. i am manic-depressive (as you already know based on your readings).
Monday, January 15, 2007
MY KNIGHTS IN SHINING ARMOUR
when i was a little girl (i'm still little but not a girl anymore), i have always dreamed of that knight in shining armour. someone who would sweep me off my feet and take all my worries. now that i'm a bit mature, i've realized that it's hard to hope for that romance. it's disappointing and frustrating.
however, maybe things come when you least expect them. i am in manila, broke and hopeless. but 3 people helped me and encouraged me to still stand up and fight. let's call them Pocholo, Singkit and Doc.
Pochollo picked me up last night from taft avenue corner buendia. i was supposed to go to malate and meet him up. my plan was to go to taft ave corner edsa and ride a jeep there going to malate. but wow, there was a swarm of people (i think they were people going home to the province since it was a saturday night and people who watched the pyro-lympics in sm mall of asia). vehicles could not move because of the traffic jam and i could not take a taxi nor a jeep. so i walked until i reached buendia. still, there were a lot of people and no chance of getting a taxi. it was already 1 a.m. i wanted to cry and just go home (of course, by walking). then he told me to wait and he will pick me up. and in no time, there he was, in his walking shorts, white t-shirt, sneakers and comforting smile. Pochollo was a gentleman the whole time, staying at the danger side, opening doors for me, and asking if i'm okay.
Singkit is a normal guy trying to be very good guy. he tried to protect me from himself. hahaha! i don't know if that makes sense.
now, Doc, even if he's very busy, tries so much to spend time with me. he offered options and his help even if he has a lot of problems, himself.
i've never met a knight in shining armour before. the cynical me would have said that there's no such thing or person. i had been so sure before that no guy could ever be like that. but i am so glad that i'm wrong.
however, maybe things come when you least expect them. i am in manila, broke and hopeless. but 3 people helped me and encouraged me to still stand up and fight. let's call them Pocholo, Singkit and Doc.
Pochollo picked me up last night from taft avenue corner buendia. i was supposed to go to malate and meet him up. my plan was to go to taft ave corner edsa and ride a jeep there going to malate. but wow, there was a swarm of people (i think they were people going home to the province since it was a saturday night and people who watched the pyro-lympics in sm mall of asia). vehicles could not move because of the traffic jam and i could not take a taxi nor a jeep. so i walked until i reached buendia. still, there were a lot of people and no chance of getting a taxi. it was already 1 a.m. i wanted to cry and just go home (of course, by walking). then he told me to wait and he will pick me up. and in no time, there he was, in his walking shorts, white t-shirt, sneakers and comforting smile. Pochollo was a gentleman the whole time, staying at the danger side, opening doors for me, and asking if i'm okay.
Singkit is a normal guy trying to be very good guy. he tried to protect me from himself. hahaha! i don't know if that makes sense.
now, Doc, even if he's very busy, tries so much to spend time with me. he offered options and his help even if he has a lot of problems, himself.
i've never met a knight in shining armour before. the cynical me would have said that there's no such thing or person. i had been so sure before that no guy could ever be like that. but i am so glad that i'm wrong.
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